Sunday, January 30, 2011

Memories

There are loads of medicines available in the market which helps to improve your memory capabilities. But are there any medicines available which helps one to forget?
Memories... the ones which used to be the memories which I treasured at one point in life and thought would treasure throughout my lifetime, are the ones which I want to forget now. They keep haunting me, sometimes making me feel crazy and wanting me to shut them up into Pandora's Box. I just want to get rid of them then.
How does one block them all away? Relations fade up but memories, they just remain. And its so weird. I sometimes do think of certain times which I never thought were there in my subconscious. I never remembered them during my happy times. And now when sad times are here, they just invade my conscious self and haunt me the more. Is time the only medicine and only remedy for the current situation? Is there nothing which can be done to speed up the process. Will I be getting hurt until the right TIME is here?

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Trying to feel positive

My first entry in my blog.
Recently had a break up. Well.... not recently... its been 3 months since the break up. But still haven't got over him. And my condition, well.... cant be sure if its improving or worsening. So, today looked up articles in the net.
Ya.. at previously I used to just laugh at these blogs. I mean I never took these things seriously, like getting suggestions from the net. But in my current position, am ready to do whatever it takes to come out of this mourning.
There were good articles. And I understood some things today. The first and foremost - one has to oneself feel the urge to come out of this mourning. We are not able to get out of this, because we still have 1% hope left within us that everything would once again get back to normal. Once you do realise that fact that it wont, forgetting the person you love becomes a bit easier. And then leave things to TIME.
I know, its very frustrating this wait period, but believe me you just cant do anything to speed up this process. And then some people said, if you really loved that person, then you can never forget that person ever. What you learn with time is to live without that person. With passing time, you get over that person.
One post said, there will be a time, when you will be able to let it go. Well, am still waiting for that time, when I can really let go of him.... Still waiting!